Before, I was the Sun

Beaming heart across the eons

Warming all near and distant planets

.

I couldn’t see them

But I knew my children were there

Somewhere out in the vast darkness

I held them, in love

.

I thought I knew them,

Each of my offspring

Although at a distance

I thought I understood

.

But, after the terror

Somehow, I am now in the cold

Trans-Neptunian

I have become, one of them

.

Now, I hope that the Sun exists

Now, I yearn for Her rays to find me

Now, I just wish something would hold me

Alone, out here, for so so long

Now, I understand

.

Before, I was the Sun

Warming all near and distant planets

I thought I knew them

And held them in love

Now,

Out here in the cold, aching

I can hardly see

I don’t even know if She exists

I fear I may self-combust, with no presence to notice

Now, I am children

Now

I understand