Soft mound melting roof of mouth
Vanilla cream trickling throat
Chilled silver resting lip
Beastmaster and misty swaying pines
Electric green moss carpet beneath hand
Arranging mushrooms, leaves for tiny folk
Croaking of gulls at seashore
Lighthouse moans in fog
Fingers squishing anemone
Coffeemate crumbles dissolve across tongue
Kitty fur, purring
Closed bedroom doors, horror pages turning
Crisped edges salty potatoes
Glistening crackles lemon chicken pan
Forest nooks and fortresses, wild onion and sorrel crunching
Warm sun bakery window scone
Early morning farmer’s market bustle, auntie’s basket heavy
Echoing awe gregorian chant episcopal stained glass sunbeams
A quiet night, safety
Schoolwork structure, pencil scribbling
Strumming cardboard guitars, mommy’s black knee high boots
Vampire bites from neighbors
Mommy, sleeping, working
Mommy not screaming
Mommy not grieving
Mommy not drinking
Mommy not self-destructing
Weight watchers rules, measuring cups
Empty stomachs
Substitute psychiatric mothers
Concerns in eye
His kiss
The auric field of wolf protector
Gooey pancakes, assigned and accompanied
He who fights for me
His arms holding in sweaty roiling pit
Mildewy stone wood cabin shower
Marie Callender flaky pot pie crust, juicy chunks gravy
Walking, forever
Disappearing
Admittance
Being forced to eat
White, bleached linens
White, bleached linens
White, bleached linens
Being sick enough
Low blood pressure readings, dizzy
Cafeteria coffee smells
Treatment team “not ready” declarations
Ensure, ice cubes bobbing, slowly straw slurping
Watered down amazingness hitting tongue
After crossing fasting abyss
Someone to take care of me
Someone to protect me
From Her
Feeling not alone with it
After so many years a parent-child
Hope
Veggie burger patty melted cheese
Cafeteria privileges, grown up coffee drinking
Crazy talks with other crazy birds
Twisted tribe
Worry in whitecoat eyes
Another admittance
Safety
For awhile
Not having to fight Her
For awhile
Hope
That this time’s the last
Letting Go 